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love is

what is love?

there are a lot of songs asking this question, i've realized. it's interesting to me. everyone wants to know the answer.

is there even an answer to this question?

i think love is a nice, warm feeling. a sense of security. when you feel loved, you feel like you belong there. you don't feel out of place.

i love my bedroom and my plushies. when i'm in my room and surrounded by my plushies, i feel at peace. i love my friends. they don't make me feel like a loser. i love music. i feel seen and heard when i listen to it.

can you feel love for things you've never experienced? i've never had a dog, but somehow i just know if i ever got one, i'd be the happiest girl on earth.

love gives you happiness. love gives you hope. love makes you whole again. but what if you are in love with something - or someone - who doesn't reciprocate those feelings?

are there some kinds of love that can hurt you?

being in love and having those little sparks of dopamine - is it really worth it if ultimately, it's not helping you? when it's really just making you worse?

this can be applied to a lot of different things, i think.

i don't know where i was going with this. something happened yesterday, and i've just been thinking... but it's okay. i'll be okay.